The Bible says in 1 Timothy 1:8 that "God has not given us the spirit of fear, but power, love and a sound mind". I claim that promise today. Yet, today, I also had bouts of fear throughout the day, an onset of stressful situations and distressing news. I was forced to declare openly, "God I need your help to overcome my fears".
I know...you may be thinking...but you know that fear doesn't come from God? Yes, I know. The spirit of fear is a demonic spirit that attacks the mind and the emotions and you must speak against it. At the same time, we must also depend on the Holy Spirit to strengthen us when we are weak; when we feel "out of sorts" or tired - when it's harder to say, "I will not fear".
Fear is irrational...truly the spirit of fear is a big liar! The devil (always lowercase folks....) always tries to attack you when you are going through a tough time with lies of defeat. I am committed to get more in the Word of God. To not read, watch or think on fearful things. To activate faith...to counter the fear. I command that spirit of fear to go right now in Jesus Name. I will overcome. I will not fail. The future is in my loving heavenly Father's hand. Jesus is with me. The Holy Spirit is always in me, teaching me and reminding me..."do not be afraid".
When you have experienced lots of loss, there is a frailty you experience about the unknown as you go through the grief process...it's almost like being in shock or trauma. Unexpected losses are harder to bear, like an unexpected job loss or sudden death. Multiple losses leave you not finishing the grief of the last loss...so you are constantly, in one of the stages of grief. Jesus is healing me, one grief at a time. It is so important to not let the grief go under - as I told one friend, you must do the grief work - examine the grief, look at it, experience it, and release it and yourself to God.
I know God doesn't make me afraid. I claim the victory that was won in Jesus Christ to defeat this spirit out of my mind. I just know I need God's help, to be healed from the root of the fear: the grief, the anxiety, the guilt and the stress that makes it difficult on those days when I don't feel strong. "When I am weak, then am I strong".
Thankfully, Jesus is strong...stronger than all of my fears and grief. He has carried them.
"Today, Lord, carry me".