Today I cried...I knew that God was at work in my life when I attended a church where a healing service was being conducted along with Holy Communion. The church, a quiet place of bountiful worship, scripture reading was most beautiful in its simplicity. No cameras...lights or "live stream videotaping". It was a time for a refreshing. After service, the pastor took 20 minutes or more of her time to talk to me...about my good grief. I knew by the Holy Spirit that I was grieving and stressed, but I didn't really get it until I spoke to the Pastor about the recent changes of a relocation, new job - what she called, "high stress" events. I was once again reminded of how good God is in watching over His little children and letting me (us) know, that He cares - He sends His people to minister to minister to others in their time of need.
Thankfully, I am facing my good grief. The terrible pain of grief again in spite of making a good decision that led to other good decisions for change, did not stop me from experiencing a sense of loss. This explained my anxiety and sadness...loss is really loss....no matter the loss. Leaving even good things, a change in geographic locations, a new job, a new place to live, a new routine and leaving behind what was...causes grief. After our talk, my heart was both glad and sad - I know now how to pray about the grief and glad that "I am normal".
I have also attended two funerals in the last two weeks of moving. I am overwhlemed and needed to recognize that I was in a grieving place. I have however, after acknowledging that I am in the grieving process, to not attend anymore funerals for awhile - I have to take care of my own grief work. I will send cards though...but I can't take another funeral at this time. Thank God who always causes us (me) to triumph in Christ Jesus in the midst of any type of grief.
Thanking God for His help in navigating through this new grieving process.
"Thanks be to God".
Thankfully, I am facing my good grief. The terrible pain of grief again in spite of making a good decision that led to other good decisions for change, did not stop me from experiencing a sense of loss. This explained my anxiety and sadness...loss is really loss....no matter the loss. Leaving even good things, a change in geographic locations, a new job, a new place to live, a new routine and leaving behind what was...causes grief. After our talk, my heart was both glad and sad - I know now how to pray about the grief and glad that "I am normal".
I have also attended two funerals in the last two weeks of moving. I am overwhlemed and needed to recognize that I was in a grieving place. I have however, after acknowledging that I am in the grieving process, to not attend anymore funerals for awhile - I have to take care of my own grief work. I will send cards though...but I can't take another funeral at this time. Thank God who always causes us (me) to triumph in Christ Jesus in the midst of any type of grief.
Thanking God for His help in navigating through this new grieving process.
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